20 Years Old

(this post was originally posted on my blogspot account on 2.05.2006)

I turn 20 on thursday.

I wonder, like I do every year, if I’ll feel different. I’m apprehensive about it, the whole concept of 20, so that’s feeling different in itself.

I’ve been officially in two bands since I joined Birds of Wales, and this week I gave the Jim Smith Band the option of finding a new bass player. It looks like great stuff will continue to happen for Birds of Wales, and there’s talk of absolutely mind-blowing stuff in the future. I plan to persue these things if and when they come. Jim and Roop and Steve have been some of my closest friends since 2002, and I don’t want to rehearse with them and be in the band, and then just when they start trying to get gigs again be too busy with the other band and leave them in a lurch. I basically told them that I can continue playing insofar that it’s a rehearsal or two a month. If they need more out of me, or forsee needing more of me come spring or summer, I suggested they start looking for my replacement.

It was hard. I feel crappy about it – I’ve played with them for 4 or 5 years. I’ll miss it when they find someone else.

I broached the subject with Jim and told him to discuss it with Roop and Steve, and have talked to Steve and Roop since then, but neither of them had brought it up. Roop brought it up tonight though, I’m glad he broke the ice so to speak about it.

I had a very domestic day today – bought toiletries at shopper’s, did laundry, cleaned the bathroom, cleaned the kitchen and common room with Cece. I get a weird satisfaction out of cleaning, even though I absolutely dread the idea of doing it.

I have a warm fuzzy feeling in my gut right now. I guess I just feel good overall about everything in general. And no, I haven’t been drinking.

G’night.

~ by scottwchris on February 11, 2006.