I Should Really Study

I’m having trouble motivating myself to fully dive in to the studying for monday’s exam. At some point today I need to realise that I’m absolutely doomed if I don’t start immediately, and then I’ll have from that point forward, tomorrow night and both weekend days. Passing is a priority, apparently.

I interviewed for a job at a bank a few days ago, and it went well. For some reason I kind of like the concept of trying that this summer. My total stress is halved if I land it. My work stress (or out of work stress) is much greater than the exam stress… which is maybe part of the whole studying apathy thing.

My brother got into UofT. No surprises there. Good for him.

Two weeks ago I had a week dense with drama. Most of it I can take responsibility for, but it was ridiculous. I pride myself of my damage control skills in akward situations, but I failed miserably. There were three simultaneous blow ups. Two of them were with people who I didn’t want to hurt, but with one there was impact on a best friend who was connected to the indivual. Fortunately it’s resolved, however I think there may be some residual chafing.

I had dinner/caught up with someone from my past (circa late highschool, early uni) that I hadn’t connected with in eons. I feel like the few times we have seen eachother since the summer both of us have had our guard up/kept our cards close in those exchanges. This dinner did not feel like that, and it was just good. Definately motivates me to put some energy into renewing that friendship, because I get alot out of being around that person.

I’ve started my 5-6 days a week gym regimen. I’m sore as hell, but hey… it’s a really manly sore so there’s a funny satisfaction in it. I’ve convinced Zac to come with me to Hart House rather than AC (which is his preference). For those of you who don’t know, Hart House is in an old building, has great cardio equipment but a smalled weight room. AC is rife with really big guys who make you feel like an interloper. But the facility is better. Hart House is an obvious choice for me, though, because there are girls there. I mean, come on.

It’s 11:20. Clean Room. Eat Something. Study until 3. Practice. Gym. Study.

When exams are over it’ll be a bit warmer and I’m definately thinking about having another party here, this time fully employing the balcony.

~ by scottwchris on April 26, 2007.